Friday, December 31, 2010

die diet

I dreamt I wanted to be a vampire, so I agreed to become a vampire in training learned to live in a coffin. Looking at this dream metaphor, I am learning to change my life. I am being led through my OA plan and sponsor to come back from the dead.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

store

Last night, I dreamt I was in a grocery store, where I worked, in the dream. In real life, I work in a custom screen printing shop. I dreamt I had nothing to do, so I kept hidding or wandering off. Tom caught me and threatened to fire me. It wasn't far from the truth. In real life, I worry about getting work done, especially when I'm not sure what to do. My conscience gets angry at me.

Monday, September 27, 2010

drowning

I dreamt I wanted to go to a show, with my buddies. The problem was, to get to the show, we had to jump through a hole in the floor and swim an underground river to get there. I'm too fat to get through the normal hole. I needed a bigger hole, farther back, but that meant I had farther to go. I was afraid I couldn't hold my breath that long, so I would be left out.

After spending a week thinking about the dream, I know what it meant. I would be one of several people, over eaters, who would swim the stream to get a normal body, but I have longer to go, and I was afraid abstinence would feel like drowning.

I'm going to take the plunge. I've met with a dietitian. She's given me a book and other guidance. I'm going to an OA meeting and I'm going for abstinence.

nightmare getting home

I had this dream I was on the Staten Island Ferry, on my way home, and it had trouble getting there. Something about going over the Moon or by the Moon. At one point, I had made it to the Ferry terminal, I was trying to call home or a cab, to get a ride, but my phone didn't work. What could it mean?